Some Things Never Change
Happy 10th Birthday Noah!
Noah and Natalie are my step kids. As if my divorce a year ago wasn’t painful enough, life threw in an additional lession: You can’t change everything and have things stay the same.
When Natalie cried – who will take us for walks? I told her – Me! Who will pick us up from school? Me! I can still do that! Who will take us camping in the summer? Me and Nannie and Papa and all the cousins! We’ll still all go camping. And when you come to see your Dad, you can stay with me and you can always call me and you and me and Noah can still be together.
Silly Jennifer, the trick is on you. Since the divorce I am not allowed to see the kids… or call them… or even send a gretting card to their house.
This blog is for Natalie and Noah. It’s my way to document how much I love them and miss them and think about them. So if they care to look, someday they can see that this person who loved them to infinity – DID NOT LEAVE THEM. Natalie and Noah and me – we know. We know what we had.
There came an afternoon in Hawaii when Natalie and Daddy were out of the car buying shaved ice. Noah and I were chatting about a little of this and a little of that when he said – Do you wish you were my mom? And I told him – Every day, mijo, every day.
Happy Birthday Mijo. *Some* things never change.
Ohhhhhh…I love it already. I hope it helps to write about it. I love and miss them too. Kristina
I know i should write a comment on the most recent post, not the earliest one. but I just wanted to say that your situation sounds heartbreaking and I am very sorry.